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Love, oh love, stop making a fool out of me...

Came across my old school MP3's and it's taking me wayyyy back. This song ("Love Stop Making a Fool Out of Me" by Minnie Rippleton was my jam in the 9th grade! It's crazy to think about ten years ago I was in this same room, downloading/singing to these songs trying to find a way to heal myself every night and now I'm here, in the same room... still trying to heal myself, but from completely different things. And I guess it doesn't help that one of the boys I was completely smitten over back then, and who I'm still very good friends with is finally back talking to me lol.

I wish I could write blog entries like I use to back then. But I can't anymore. I was obsessed with love and figuring it out. Of taking apart my life and my failed relationships and piecing them back together to a point where they started to make sense.

And Fall gets me in that mood. That mood where I'd drown in slow jams and think of all the boys that broke my heart, and just get really really sad. But it's always the best writing when I'm really really really sad. Now a days there's only one boy who can break my heart but it's different. I don't try to take apart our arguments and put them back together because unlike the other boys, I know where his heart is. I know where his mind is. He's not that mysterious boy with the spikey hair and tail anymore that I'd spend days trying to figure out.

And that kinda kills the fun of my writing.

I don't even really remember what it felt like to miss being with someone. Or to miss someone in more than a friend way. And I really really miss it. Now all I have are the songs that bring me back a feeling that feels so close but so far away.

16 years...

I haven't seen my cousin from the Philippines in 16 years, so when she told me she was visiting while I was on my internship in Florida, I was pretty excited to see her again.

That died down pretty quick.

First of all she somehow managed to hack into our internet system so she could grant herself access to it and changed our internet settings and passwords in the process. Thank goodness my husband was able to set it all back when we got home... four weeks later. Ugh.

Then she decided to make my house a check point in Foursquare. Where she's from -- in the Philippines -- that might be okay since she lives in a rich gated community. But here, in California? That's just plain dumb. So I brought it up with her and she had the nerve to tell me maybe I shouldn't be on Foursquare because I'm so paranoid and proceeded to argue with me. All I said was that I wouldn't check into my home. She had no reason to start snapping at me and getting all this attitude. It's my house, not yours. Have some fuckin common courtesy.

So I told my mom, because it bothered me and I think my mom had a right to know. So she brought it up with my cousin like, a week or two later. And for some reason my cousin got all upset and called her mom and they sent her and her sister to another part of California. And my cousin deleted me and blocked me on all of her social networking sites.

Uh, okay?

Not exactly the reunion I had in mind...

The end of a chapter, the start of a new.

This chapter of my life is quickly coming to an end and I'm sad to see it go. But I'm also excited because it means I can move on from this amazing experience and on to another adventure.

Even though this internship wasn't *exactly* what I thought it would be (then again what ever is), it was more than I could had even imagined. I made amazing wonderful friends here, I got to live on my own, I got to experience Disney magic, my dreams came true here. And I will miss everything; the parks, the buses, living two blocks away from Panera Bread and an outlet, The Florida Mall, venturing through Magic Kingdom's tunnels (and touching the wall, because I can), Marketplace, West Side, Nick's Place, the little lizards that run passed you, the frogs that flood the sidewalk after it rains, the thunderstorms, Candy Cauldron and everything about it, my leaders, my coordinators, my friends... I'll even miss this stupid crappy apartment. Because it was mine.

I'm even going to miss my crappy neighbors that have to play music at 1pm every single day. Maybe.

After living in Florida for 8 months, it's so hard to imagine going home. And saying that surprises me because home was my familiar. My comfort. But now I don't really remember what my comfort or my familiar was. Now I don't want to leave Orlando because this is comfort, this is my familiar now and I feel like I'm starting all over again.

Packing sucks. I've never actually (myself) moved before and to move across the country is such a hassle. So much stuff to pack up, not enough boxes. Or time to get to the post office. I'll figure something out I guess.

Off to relax a bit more and figure out what to do... not much time left now.

Drowsy!

>_<

I'm not even gonna say it. 

But I really have been swamped with work and by the time I get home all I can think about is sleeping. Husband has to force me to eat before bed cause even if I am hungry, I won't eat!

They transfered me to another location in my area and I'm not very happy there. Not only that but I get off work wayy later than I do in my home location which means I get home even later than usual since it takes me an hour to get home. So yeah. Then I force myself to wake up semi early but I still don't get much done in that time frame. Earlier (and much longer) shift tomorrow I'm not looking forward to.

I wish I could do my weekly picture recap thing, but man, with the days being a blur it's hard to determined what was done on what day. But I will compose something like it soon. Hopefully, maybe next week on my next day off. I'm trying to convince myself to stay home a whole day. I know I'm in the magical land of Disney but really, I'm human. I need to rest yo.

Just wanted to check in and say hello :)!

 

Time why are you passing so fast?

I was going to do a post about the CandyBar fail, but then Christmas sprang up on me and I was going to do a post about Christmas but then our anniversary sprang up on me and I was going to do a post on our lovely anniversary (despite the storm) but then I realized I had less than 10 days to pack for the move and well... even writing this entry is not what I'm suppose to be doing.

I have so many blog posts to write and I'm really hoping I'll be able to write them... before I leave would be nice! 

So I'm a little upset at myself, mostly because uhm, it's almost New Years and thinking of resolutions has totally flown over my head! I have no effen idea of what they should be. I have a few idea's but nothing like... amazing or anything. This sucks. I don't know what to pack and what to leave behind. I have so much cleaning to do, it's insane.

I'm hoping my dad gets back soon with some food so I can eat and continue cleaning. May start lightweight packing today too. Just to get an idea of what I'm bringing. 

Oh, this is going to be fun. 

 

☃ Merry Christmas Eve!

 

 

 

Merry Christmas Eve!

 

 

I hope you all have a wonderful and safe holiday! 

I'm hoping to pop open this Cupcake wine later tonight!

 

Visiting old schools and shopping!

Monday was our last day of class. I didn't really think much of it except that I was annoyed about our presentation. I was on a search for fuzzy socks for guys before class, while husband was at the gym. Apparently fuzzy socks for guys aren't the hottest trend this season. I got CJ some gloves instead. The kind with the caps. I'm jealous, his are cool. They're magnetic.Mine has a button. I also got some earrings from The Icing and two of their new chrome nail polishes. I'm obsessed with chrome nail polish!

Class went by pretty fast, we had a few exercises and then we went on to our presentation in which, I blanked completely on my slide. How embarrassing. But the teacher did like what Victor and Martin did with the intro slide. It was so stupid haha but funny! We got full points just because of that slide alone. Whoooo!

Tuesday I woke up to husband trying to wake me up saying I got my book in that he got me for Christmas. I was half asleep though, so I didn't care lol. He also brought home a big box of Fruit Roll Ups. His reason? "I know you've been looking for themfor a while". Awww, what a sweetie :)! I spent the day doing nothing. Which is bad when you have less than 30 days to move. But man, I just really didn't feel like doing anything!

Wednesday (yesterday) we went to stop by Peoples to catch up and stuff with some of our favorite teachers (mostly Ms. G and Ms. Feeley, I think everyone else left already). Ms. Feeley is so cheerful! She's seriously the coolest teacher in the history of the world. And Ms. G is just plain mean lol. She's always so sarcastic and ready to attack, but in a friendly way :). It was nice being there again, I miss it so much. So much has changed there! And Leadership is falling off, which makes me sad, hopefully it'll pick up again... our Vice Principal, Mr. Mims retired last year and so they made this mural for him...

I thought it was pretty funny. They got him looking all ghetto with a peace sign and stuff. And the pyramids next to him lol. Whoever did this is awesome. With Mims you were either a citizen, a friend or a criminal. He also had a friend named "door" who had another friend named "Tuolumne" and another friend named "Broadway" (which are the streets thatsurround Peoples High School lol). Lucky me, I was always the first two :).

Headaches.

I hate headaches and since the stress of the holidays have kicked in, I've been getting them more frequently.

I have most of my Christmas shopping done. I'm missing two things: Wet N' Wild holiday palette (here's to hoping I find one of those) and socks that a guy would think is cool (what does that even mean?!).  Other than that, all my Christmas shopping is done. Now I just have to wrap gifts, scan pictures and I'm all done! 

Other than that, this weekend I have to make up my mid-term, do my final and do a group presentation assignment. This blows. At least it's my last week of school and I'll be on break! I just have to deal with this last week. 

Then there's cleaning, packing and moving. 

Oh December, you're always so stressful!

I. Don't. Care.

I'm in my last class before I take my extensive break to take a job in Florida. I've had the same class for almost a year but I've never been in their learning team up until a class or two ago. And the reason why my husband and I didn't want to be in their learning team is because they have a member who is controlling of all controlling and even though we expected it, it still annoys us.

Lately she's been going through some shit, I don't know she never tells anyone she just acts snarky and annoyed all the time. And she swears like she's the only one who's busy. Ever. All three of them also didn't make it to class this past Monday leaving just me and husband as the only two in class. We had a power point on outlines-ish stuff that they missed, so I'm sure our homework is wrong *sigh. There's no use in correcting it either because they didn't see the outline and I just don't wanna deal with it since the moody member isn't  going to be available from tomorrow to MONDAY. How that makes sense in beyond me. We're all busy. You can't just have everyone accommodated to YOUR life. That's unfair. Whatever. 

Two more classes and I'm out. I'm so sick of this shit.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Just popping in to say Happy Thanksgiving!

I have so much to be thankful for this year! I don't have a lot of time (my tummy is grumbling) so I'll just make a quick list ;)

• My amazing and wonderful husband who is always supportive of me. No matter how crazy my newest obsession, idea or hobby is. What would I do without him?
• My fur babies for being the light of my life! Jay for being my sunshine, Ming for being a little princess all the time and Boq for keep me company and being my marshmallow!
• My newest adventure, because I feel so very blessed and lucky to have this opportunity!
• My family! My parents for babying me all the time even when I don't need to me, my amazing and supportive cousins! And the fact that my in laws like me lol.
• Wicked, the amazing musical itself, the friends it brought me and the wonderful SF cast who have touched my life.
• The book blogging community! The awesome book blogger friends I've made, the authors I've met and those I talk to via email and twitter and the publishers/publicists who think I'm worthy. You guys have opened a whole new world to me!
• The UoP! All the friensd I've made and the wonderful staff that feels like friends! I will miss them all so very much!

I'm thankful for everything. And waking, streaching and feeling thankful is such an amazing feeling. I can't wait to see my family later today. And get my shop on tomorrow lol.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!